We know a NEW moon is when you plant the seeds of your desires and the FULL moon is when you see the sprouted leaf or reap the harvest of many combined moons after working diligently.
We associate the word “work” with “career” and/or “money” and sometimes to our determent “identity!” I ask young students and children “What do you think you want to do for a career to earn a living when you’re older?” We’ve all heard “what do you want to be when you grow up?” …Uh duh!!! HAPPY, successful, beautiful, loving, healthy, supportive and supported completely in love and loved. We lose focus on what our path once looked like since we began learning in school, we lose our innocence on what we’re here to really achieve. I myself as a child wanted to be a doctor, singer, actress but that’s not what I turned out “to be” or is it?
I’m a healer in words I choose, touch and I direct my heart rays to the planet (from the universe) just by loving.I’m a singer, not on stage; but to babes in arms, over highways and waves to mountainsides. I’m an actress, not for box office sales but a leading actress of my life and as I get older I’ve become the director and playwright aligning to what I want.
Okay, I digress (it’s Mercury Retrograde for goodness sakes) but I learn by writing it out…and what I’m pondering as I write here is ABUNDANCE!!! I’ve been “working” on ABUNDANCE without knowing it or understanding it until today.
THE LESSON Syllabus: Yesterday. I dragged my kids from work to my doctor’s appointment adjacent to a Japanese shopping mall. The doctor who I was “assigned” to weeks earlier and I just connected like magnets. She marveled at my age reading my blood report and said listen you are basically healthy and look great, you never come in for sickness, what do you think is going on? I answered in all honesty “I feel like I’ve been thrown up in the atmosphere like confetti and I’m still up in the air not knowing where I’m going to land or how it will look when I do, it’s undetermined. I know it’s getting me ready for alignment of something better as I’m supported; even if I don’t agree at first (haaa) but it’s brought me to examine my health.” Her eyes widen and she says “You’re giving me chills right now, that’s how I feel. I’m not a woman of religion but I feel I’m being asked to trust…and what do I trust!” (this reminds me of the Gabriel’s horn dream). I told her of how my home/health/love life is all being transformed things are coming up to examined, prepped, fixed or eradicated for the “reveal” of a new life. Upon leaving my daughter comments on a memory from a similar shopping center in which I’ll share in today’s “Abundance” Lesson.
We left this shopping center that reminded my daughter of a particular restaurant from the past, and I cringed when she mentioned it because it was a time of struggling to feed my children being a newly single mom with no child support, but a whole lot of pride NOT to ask for anything from anyone. I tell my girl “that was one of my lowest days…I didn’t have enough in my account to pay for our meal” feeling that darkness come over me like I was back there once again in time. My gorgeous 16 year old daughter says “That was my favorite day, because I had the money to pay for it and help you.” My eyes welled and she goes on ‘Remember when I told you if you have home/shelter, car and job your in the top percent of the wealthy in the world.’
We all felt emotional and “M” tells me again “thank you again (with a huge smile) for giving me the pleasure of helping you & T.” When she gets back she tells us the hilarious (she’s lively and fun so picture that when you read it) and synchronistic story of what happened when she went to get us coffee:
I’m in the drive thru and order your drinks reach for my purse…and realize I forgot it at home! I look around me and recognize another school mom in the line, get out of my car and say “hey, can I borrow $10 dollars so I can treat Erica & T to a coffee and explains what happened.” T and I know that other mom really well as we all have boys in the same grade/class and she tells our friend “M” how funny and odd because she’s never come this way or to this Starbucks!
M goes on to tell us that she was driving to our school that morning and thinking she loves our community but wanted to volunteer more because the people in her neighborhood are too into their “shells and appearances” they let their kindergarten children use media devices and that’s fine except her kids are brought up to be organically creative, and she/her kids can’t connect with them and felt like she needed to feel more connected to others with a common core. When she saw “J” in the drive thru line she felt comfortable to ask for support and realized she was supported and has a community. THAT’S Abundance!
Earlier today my friend calls me for a work question and we find out his wife and I are both having throat problems. “Erica, what can I do for you? You always help everyone, let me help you it would be my pleasure (again those words); would you like some soup I’m making for my wife?” Again, I was about to say “no, I’m fine.” but I’m not! “Yes, that would be really helpful.” When I get home I fell asleep and he sent me this message and left the bag at my doorstep.
|“The Pleasure of serving is for everyone to give and yours to receive”|
It was the final exam on abundance. It’s my full moon harvest! Things we do in earnest not for prestige or fame start from seeds and bring abundance in spirit messages, gifts, love, respect, reciprocity, support, connection, bonds, higher wisdom. Yes, I AM what I wanted to be when I grow up! AMEN I AM ABUNDANT TOO What’s even better… IS the people I’m still growing up with; we are all gardeners, and seeds!
“May we discover compassion in ourselves to see and allow for assistance; or give it when there’s a need. May we see the compassion shown to us or seen plainly in another as bright as light in strangers, family, lovers and friends from the simplest form to the grandiose and feel it equally in force.” May this eclipse take what we no longer need or hinders our growth and allow for the pruning to clear the dead and allow for the new, kissed by heavens’ lovely dew to become once again anew.” AMEN